I’m just so Damn Tired of Fighting

I’m so tired
Tired of fighting this body with everything I have
Tired of wearing this invisible mask
Tired of living with these many symptoms
Tired of the pain
Im so fuckin tired
Tired of never being acknowledged
Tired of no one ever seeing me struggling
Because I am so badly
Tired of hiding my tears
The breakdowns
Tired of me falling apart in silence
I’m just so tired
Tired of waking every morning to this same shit body
Tired of my mind failing me daily
Tired of the thoughts that are weighing me down so heavily
Those thoughts that are only negative
Only dark and gloomy
I’m tired of this body that im forced to live my life in
All it does is fail me
In every way
My mind
My body
Everything I was this illness has robbed me of
I’m just so damn tired of fighting
For it not to matter in the end
4/14/24