Marriage aint for the faint of heart
I never knew the depth of marriage
Not really
I never knew how it would change me into something I hate
Married at age 20
I wanted to make him mine
Oh, how stupid was I
I married a man I thought I loved at one point in time
Quick and easy
Know one was happy about it
I thought I was for a time
I made it this thing I had to succeed at
We had our fights
I always broke at the thought of losing you
I could never, so I submitted time and time again
I gave you more and more until there was nothing left of who I was before
You continued to be the same man you’ve always been
Never put me first
Never wanted to change
Never made us a priority
Never wanted to be married
Never really wanted me
Never wanted this life
Never wanted to stay
I never thought of separation
Let alone divorce
I thought it was such a bad thing
Was so concerned of what others would say
Of how I would look
Of the shame I would feel
Of being a failure
I now know separating and divorce should not be frowned upon
But looked on with grace and understanding
Looked at as she is a warrior
Because that couple fought many hidden battles
Because she cried herself to sleep most of that relationship
Because she hated herself the entire time
Because he was not good to her
Because he was a way to her know one will ever know
Because she finally left
Because she finally sees her worth
Divorce is now my fate as my heart is blackened with hate
Divorce is now my happy ending
And I welcome it
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This is a powerful poem about marriage and divorce, Lynn. We had fun staying at the hotel. Lots of naps, room service, and a wonderful jacuzzi that I never wanted to get out of. Did wonders for my arthritis! How are you doing? Are you exhausted from life? You have a lot on your plate! The lesion on your optic nerve-is that still causing some vision problems? I do think about you a lot. If you are tired, I will swing you in the hammock in our place, and feed you with a frozen hot chocolate drink. So yummy love you, friend!
I’m so glad you had a good time and got a little relief from the pain. Your going to have to tell your husband to have company over more often hahah. Yea pretty exhausted lol. No my vision came back so right now I’m stable with just normal daily symptoms. It’s back in the 100s this week so ready for winter. Love you friend