What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?
To be free, which in itself means so much for me. But it’s my greatest goal and dream, to be honest. Free to me means several different things.
To Be Mentally Free
To be mentally free, how I would love to have my mind quiet. To not think the thoughts, I think. To not be weighed down from all the self hatred. To actually feel worthy and accomplished. To be mentally at peace and in love with myself and my life.
To Be Physically Free
To be physically free, to not feel so trapped in this shit of a body. To not have my body constantly fail me and fight me with all it has. To not absolutely hate my skin, I’m suffered to wear every day. To find love with in myself and love this body that suffers in hell every day.
To Be Financially Free
To be financially free is a very meaningful one for me. I want to be a financially independent single mother! With this shit of an illness, it comes with a very wide range of daily invisible symptoms. This means I am very unreliable. Some days, I can push trew, but most MS wins. To be able to have a job that I can survive on my own supporting my kids in this out priced shit of a life.
To Be Me
To be able to finally leave this failed marriage. To be able to finally be on my own alone. This one God how I earn until this day. Fairytale ending, man of my dreams nope just me and my kids is my dream. To not have to be a mother to a grown man woo makes me hot. To never have another person have the control, this one did. To never have to depend on another person like I had to with him. Just to be ME!
My Hardest Goal
The hardest goal I’ve set for myself is to be free. As you see, it means every part of my soul. I’m working on myself every day trying to get there.Writing has become my harbor. Writing about things that have helped me or a more natural approach is something I’m very passionate about. Throughout the years, I’ve had doctors throw many medications at me. I’ve had to learn the hard way most are not worth the side effects and withdrawals. So, I started researching everything from more natural ways to ease my many symptoms. To herbs and oils to making my own creams. To any knowledge, I think would also benefit others suffering from MS. That I share with you.
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A wonderful and laudable goal. What it means to be free is so varied, isn’t it? Autonomy, independence, peace, and feeling valued by ourselves and others. I think sometimes this is a lifelong goal. Just stating what you want for your life is a step in the right direction. 🙂
Yes, you are completely right. It’s definitely a lifelong goal thank you for your comment.
Great !
wonderfully penned. I think you are in the right place to keep on writing. I think we learn about ourselves when we do that.
I totally agree with you. I never knew how much writing could help me.
Yes. And you will find such encouragement on a blog. 🤗
Nice
Great honesty here, and that’s empowering. (And it’s true, blogging can create great community.)
Thank you. Yes, I have found such a great community here on wordpress
My pleasure.
Very nice article 🥉
I hope you get there my friend
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