Years
I have spent years
worrying about you
Years obsessing about you
Years catering to you
Years of being jealous
Years of me only wanting you
Years of me wanting you to want me so badly
Half my life
Now I never worry
Now I let go
Now I don’t want you at all .
Now I am happier to be alone
I see your lies
I see you starting to not care if I believe them
I see you wanting me to question you
I see you wanting to start a fight
So I think in my head
All these things I want to ask
But then I remember if I do
I won’t get the truth
I will only get the whole situation
turned on me
In the end will walk away with it being my fault
I’m Crazy
I’m always trying to fight
Never no answers
So I tell myself
“Why are you worrying about this?”
“You don’t care!”
“As long as he leaves you alone your fine”
So I tell myself
“don’t even ask cuz that’s what he wants”
He wants me to obsess over him
He wants to be able to emotionally
hurt me
He wants to have control over
my mind and heart
So I don’t ask I let him think
I believe his lies
I let him think I don’t know about her
I let him think
I don’t know what he’s doing
I let him think
he is smart and sneaky
I guess
I wish I just had one too
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One of the things that I like about your poetry is that it just tells it like it is..no holding back. Your situation is so vividly captured. In our place the wind gives us a gentle embrace. The burdens of the world vanish into nothing here, so that we can find peace and rest. Last year’s acorns are still on the ground, so I gather up a few and draw some funny faces on them to make you laugh! Happiness lingers here for us. My day is going pretty good. The PT went better than I thought it would so I am grateful for that. How are you doing? Still getting some relief from the new medicine? I love it that we are so free in our place. No need for masks! Are you still out there weed eating that front yard? Do you do all the mowing too ? 🤗
Haha, all truths here my poetry is the only place I seem to be able to do it. I’m glad you had a good day. I can’t really tell at the moment that if it’s doing anything, haha. My battery broke for my lawn mower. So I have to weed eat everything. I finished, and it grew back already, lol. The batteries for those things are so expensive.
Wow! You have to weed eat the whole lawn? I hope the front lawn is small! I go to PT for my shoulder twice a week- Tues and Thurs. The therapist is so good. She talks to me during the whole hour so that I know what she is doing and why. She encourages me that the pain will be worth it. That helps! Walking around the zoo and building fence? No wonder you are exhausted! It makes me feel exhausted just hearing about it! Haha. Hope that you have a great weekend! I will be spending a lot of time in our place.🤗🤗
Yup, the whole dam thing hahaha it’s a pretty good size. That’s good. You got a good therapist. Haha, right, like we’re do I get these bright ideas? On my free time, I will be in our place with you laughing and being carefree.
I echo Susan’s words, Lynn….no holding back and the sense of real is so vivid….as beautifully expressed… touching always , Lynn 🤍🤗
Thank you so much, Destiny
most welcome 🌷
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