Our 15-year anniversary passes
You only know because you happen to look at the calendar
In habit, when pulling out the new calendar, I transfer over
All birthdays and holidays as well as anniversaries
You make it a point to ask me if I know it’s our anniversary?
Not because you did!
Not because you wanted yet another year here with me
Not because you got me anything or did anything for me at all
Just to scold me for not bringing it up
For me not making it a big deal
For me not being that happy girl for yet another year with you
For me not wanting to celebrate it at all
I used to
I used to be all this you now bitch for
The obsessed with only you
The always calling
Long texts
Catered to you
Did everything for you
Changed every ounce of my being for you
As the 13 year marriage anniversary approaches
It’s not something I look forward to any longer
Not something Im proud of
Not something that makes me happy
As I look at the calendar I see this number
That keeps adding up
A number that makes me sadder and sadder with each day
Another year that I am still here
Stuck in this prison
Another year I have not became who I need to succeed
Another year here when all I want is to be free
15 years & 13 years Married
✍️ 2/11/24 6:40 P.M.
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It is great to read another poem of yours. So sad, though. Wish that things were better for you. Next Thursday is when my husband goes in for knee replacement surgery. Not looking forward to the whole thing, it will be at least 6 weeks before he can do things like drive. I am OK, but still battling my usual depression. I discovered a new crochet stitch on pinterest, and I am going to give it a try this afternoon. How are you doing? Are you dead yet from all that you have to do? How is your job going? There is hot chocolate and laughter waiting in our place. See you there, my friend!
Hi friend, I’m wishing your husband a fast recovery. I just love how creative you are. I think that the depression I have is now just my normal state. Some days worst. I got a violation on my yard again and my landlord beqrly told me what I need to do yesterday. So I was completely dead today already and now have to do all he wants me before they come and check Monday. Ugh lol I’m like just leave me alone. My pain is at crying and limping level. My feet are so bad. I’m dead that’s me lol. Well wish me luck I have 4 lattice I have to take down and a bunch of crap I have to move in my backyard. Yet I’m here drinking tea procrastinating lol
Drinking tea and procrastinating is good for the soul, right? Haha. Sounds like the landlord is a slave driver! He only gave you till Monday to make it all to his liking? I am wishing you lots of luck, my friend! I am practicing my new crochet stitch and just hanging around today. I will be thinking of you and hope your yard work doesn’t kill you!