I wanted something to top your disrespect

I wanted something

Something to make me feel like you did

I didn’t look, also didn’t make myself unavailable either

I said to myself “ I owe you no loyalty” I owe myself to try and taste what you have

Is it right? Is it fair?

No, but neither was any of the shit you did to me

You say you would never leave me if in my shoes You’d forgive me

You’d get over it

Not obsess over it

Care about the dude

I don’t understand how you could

I feel like you need to be in my shoes

Feel my pain

You say do it already so I can get over it

I say it has to top your disrespect

Top your time, Top your connection, Top your whole dam affair

For it to actually make a difference

I don’t know if I can

If I’m up for it

Feel like I’m healing but yet have these thoughts to get my payback

Will it fix us? No! Will it hurt you? I fuckin hope so!!!

Don’t see how anyone could like me

When I don’t like myself

I just need something

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