I Wasn’t Young For Long
I wasn’t always taken care of
I was always moving around as a child
I went were mom went
I wasn’t always watched
I went wherever moms new high was
I had a lot of new friends threw out my life
I grew up in tweakerland
I went deep young
I started drinking young
I started dating young
I started parting young
I started being sexually active to young
I started smoking pot to young
I was aloud to do all of these things to young
I fought against mom, not always though
I noticed she punished me based on who I was doing these things with
I started self inflicting to young
I started running the streets to young
I started to cheat, lie, and be simply ruthless to young
I started to lose my self so young
I started getting tattoos & piercings to young
I regret most of them
I fell in love to young
I gave myself fully away to young
I felt so much pain to young
I got pregnant to young
I gave up to young
I grew up to fast
I regret most of it
I wish I would have stayed young just a little longer
I wish I would have kept my heart a little longer
I would’ve liked to keep my smile a little longer
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Oh, Lynn! I feel so deeply for the little girl that was you in this poem, and for the woman that you have become through all of this early trauma. Just having you talk about your trials helps to heal some of mine somehow. Thanks, my friend! How very much having you and our place add to my life right now. It makes me so glad. It does me so much good to laugh there with you. Right now I am working on exercising my frozen shoulder, and am making good progress. I do get grumpy sometimes because of the pain, but all in all I am doing good with it. How are you doing? Did you stop doing the mediterranean diet? Are you almost dead yet from all that weed eating? How is your pain?
I’ve been in our place a lot lately there’s always much needed laughter there. Is there any improvement in your shoulder? I’m still trying to incorporate more healthier options into our food. More whole grains, smoothies every day, so that’s a treat. I actually had to weed eat my front yard last night, hahah. It seems to be growing back so fast. I think I have died so many times already. He’ll won’t keep me, hahaha. Pain is still very much constant. I told fibro doctor if she could up it since I don’t seem to notice anything, she won’t till I see her, which is the end of June, ugg
I went to PT today, and I am happy to say that I am seeing some improvement! I have about a month left to go, so I’ve got my fingers crossed. PT usually leaves me feeling burned out and grumpy, but today I am just grumpy with no excuse. Hahah. In our place bunches of poppies tremble in the breeze while nearby a lilac bush gives off it’s heavenly scent. The sun has broken through the clouds, and we are drinking our green tea and laughing at everything. It is good for the soul! 🤗
Hahah well, I’m glad tour at least seeing improvement. Yes, our place is always good for our soul.